Just wanted to stop in and say sorry for my absence as of late. I recently lost my mother on June 10,2014. I just haven’t had the heart to blog and read much since then. I took it hard. It was very sudden and very heart breaking. I blamed myself for the first three days after as I felt if I just hadn’t argued with her through the years or if I had told her I loved her that morning instead of our routine nightly hugs and love yous, that she might still be here. But, I know the good Lord was ready for her to go home and see her dad and family and meet my father-in-law to tell stories about my husband and I from our childhood. It’s still very raw and very hard for me from time to time, especially when I read. She was an avid reader and got me hooked on books. But, I will push through and be okay. I had a tattoo that my ex husband gave me, a “homemade” tattoo if you can call it that (it wasn’t good….just a “Y” as he didn’t finish the butterfly…..and my mom and I always talked about me having it removed or covered up. She wasn’t a fan of tattoos but would have rather I had a professionally done one from the start. So, last night, I went and got it covered up in her memory. She loved fall and pumpkins (oh how she adored her pumpkins!) and so I got a pumpkin and fall leaves with her name above and her dates below. It’s a little something to hold on to her by and I hope that in time, I will be able to feel her with me all the time.
But, please, if you would, keep me and my family in your prayers as we still have good and bad days. We are trying to carry on with out her but in the end, that was our best friend, and the most beautiful woman I knew, and life will never be the same with out.
Please be on the look out for some upcoming reviews from me and to the publishers and tour companies I review for, I’m so sorry for my absence but I’m back now and will be making up for lost time!
Molly aka Reviews By Molly
I’m so sorry for your loss!! It is so hard and quite unbearable at times knowing that Mom is gone. I’m walking down that journey too and I know how you feel. There is no medicine at all to cure a broken heart. I send my prayers and many hugs to you. TAKE YOUR TIME, don’t worry about blogging just take one day at a time.
My heart goes out to you.
Many of us totally understand your feelings & dilemma.
May God’s comfort and Blessings be upon you.
Oh, Molly, I’m so so sorry to hear you lost your mom! You’ve had a difficult month, first with your surgery and now with this big loss. My heart feels for you. Sending you lots of warm hugs.
Molly, I’m so sorry to hear about your mother – it’s an awful time but I hope you begin to find glimmers of happiness soon. Sending you hugs, Michele xo
I know exactly what you are going through. I lost my mum to cancer a week ago and I’m struggling just to get through the days, not wanting to read or blog or do anything. I totally understand what you are saying about the good days and bad days, the feelings of guilt over every fight you ever had etc. Your family are in my thoughts at this difficult time. *hugs*
I am so sorry to hear about your loss, we just lost our aunt yesterday, not nearly as bad as your mother, but we have all dealt with loss…here for you.
My thoughts, prayers, and hugs are sent your way.